Maybe it's time to let go. Sometimes it's best to not talk to people if they're not giving enough effort, or if they're not giving any effort at all to get in touch with you. I've realized that there are some people in my life that just don't try to contact me, whether they're family or friends. I don't know if it's because they don't care, or if they're just busy, but it doesn't matter. I've tried so many times to keep them in my life and be a part of theirs as well, but it's so hard when you give them your all and get nothing in return. It's painful too, knowing that you're thinking about them often and they probably hardly think of you. I know I'm not the top priority in everyone's life, and I never expected to be, but when someone never ever talks to you at all, you end up feeling like their last priority.

Things change in people's lives. Over time, you learn to accept it and move on.

I read this amazing book today called "Beastly." It was awesome. And I hardly read books, but I've realized that I should start reading more. The most recent books I've read (aside from the Twilight saga, which I'm getting rather sick of reading over and over again) are: "The Astonishing Adventures of Fanboy and Goth Girl" (which was a great book), and "Beastly", which was an awesome book, too. "The Astonishing Adventures of Fanboy and Goth Girl" is a book about a boy that doesn't fit in in high school and only has one best friend, but when he meets a goth girl named Kyra, a bunch of crazy stuff happens. "Beastly" is basically a teenage version of Beauty and the Beast, but it's a little different than the kiddie Disney version. I won't spoil it for you, so go read the books! >;D

Things have been a little rough lately. School drama and all that other bull crap really needs to stop. I kind of just hate school and I want to graduate already. I know it's not easy in the outside world, and I know things are very hard from what I've heard and seen. I'm going to be getting myself a job soon so I can start saving up money for a car/apartment/college/whatever else. I don't care what it takes. Though, I've realized that throughout my life I've taken things a little bit too seriously. Today I'm going to push aside all of my goals and preparations for the future and have fun with my boyfriend. I think even though now's the time to start taking life seriously, maybe I've taken things too seriously too soon. Today is going to be our fun day to just relax and even get to know some more of our likes and dislikes.

I'm gonna be a senior in a few days!

I thought my schedule kinda sucked when I first got it, but it's really not so bad! I have at least one friend in every class, which is great, and my boyfriend and I have lunch together! I'm so excited!

Cheers to growing up!

So, I'm leaving for New Jersey tomorrow. Atlantic City, to be precise. I'm staying at a hotel with my grandparents for one night. It's going to be awesome! The last time I stayed at a hotel was when I went to Atlantic City 5 years ago. Only 4 more years 'til I can hit the slots. >:3

On Saturday, we're leaving Atlantic City to go to my aunt's house. She's not my aunt by blood, but she's a really close friend of my grandparents and she's the sweetest woman ever. :] I've never been to her house before, so I'm really excited to see her!

I hope you'll all miss me, because I'll miss all of you! :3